Dearest Christian:I'm So Very Sorry I Brought

Pm Dawn Dearest Christian:I'm So Very Sorry I Brought Lyrics
1.Music For Carnivores

You'll hear tales
Of all the great pretenders
Then it comes to you...

You'll spend hours
Practicing your smile
Then it comes to you...

You'll be do deceived by
'the peaceful life'
But you'll spend all your worth
Trying to be an angel
And then it comes to you

They don't feel the way you feel
They don't know that they hurt you
And when you forgive them for what they do

You get nothing

You will dream
All there is to dream
Then it comes to you...

And when you're overwhelmed by
How apathetic we are
You'll feel powerless
As you crucify your patience
Then it comes to you...

They don't feel the way you feel
They don't know that they hurt you
And when you forgive them for what they do

You get nothing

And i'm not afraid


2.Art Deco Halos

I ran into my ignorance
I think she cares for you
Cause she's been trickin' on you for quite some time
You need to tell that bitch to change her fucking frequency
When intellectricity come in mega hurts
I'm not trying not to get amped i'm trying to get you

You...
I wanna be like you
I want one of them art deco halos that makes everybody hate how
Far they are from you
I wanna be like you baby...
I want one of them art deco halos
Just to emphasize my pain

I used to hydroplane all through my astroplane
But now hating uncle sam defeats my crimes
He said 'i ain't got no guilt, so get up out of my face you
whore,
Cause act like you wouldn't like to take my job.'
But he don't know
Nothin' from nothin' leaves you nothin'
That's why he thinks he wins the wars
But it's all that stupid shit, up against my stupid shit
See i don't wanna be me no more
So don't tell me i'm loned
Tell me i'm you

You...
I wanna be like you
I want one of them art deco halos that makes everybody hate how
Far they are from you
I wanna be like you baby...
I want one of them art deco halos that give everybody else the
finger

I ran into armageddon's tears
And they've got so much love to give
But they just think his love makes the sunshine
I said 'if ya'wl ain't really against me then what's your
Fascination with me'
They said 'you make transformations all the time...
Baby i'm here for you'
But he can't do anything for nothing
Anything he got he'll get from you
And all that stupidness gets to be my stupidness
I can't think or wish, but can hate to be just about anything i
am
Except for you

I wanna be like you...


3.I Had No Right(Being So Not For You)

Why can't i keep you from the cold
Seem to know the difference faces
No matter what road you travel on
You go through the darkest places

I can't tell the angels it'll be good
For you
But wanting to say blesses be the
Darkness
For bringing the life through

But i'd be lying to myself

I had no right bringing you here
Knowing what i know, feeling the way
I feel
I had no right being so uncontent,
Being so confused,
Being so not for you

You're in love with all that you don't know
It animates your expectations
But what's the easiest way to hurt a man
Give him all he's ever wanted

Trying to tell the angels i don't
Know what to do
While convincing myself to believe
All the sadness have purpose to
Makes me hate this

I had no right bringing you here
Knowing what i know, feeling the
Way i feel
I had no right being so uncontent,
Being so confused,
Being so not for you

And when you asked the angels to
Make you a better you
Dream all you want
Cause all the light you occupy
They will try and take it all from
You

I had no right bringing you here
Knowing what i know, feeling the
Way i feel
I had no right being so uncontent,
Being so confused,
Being so not for you


4.Misery In Utero

It's all good baby
Don't worry about it
Cause i've got all the love you'll ever need

Hey it's all good baby
Don't stress on it
Cause i've got all the love you'll ever need

*surely...i've had so much pain from you
You make me regret my lifelines
360 degrees of 'love kills hatred'
To be your hate in the making
Fascinates my 'why try's'
Dangerously...i couldn't care less for you
I got enough hatred to last me lifetimes
Insufficient dreams of love just make me wait for you to hate me
Disintegrate my blue skies

It's all good baby
Don't worry about it
Cause i've got all the love you'll ever need

Hey it's all good baby
Don't stress on it
Cause i've got all the love you'll ever need

*surely...i've had so much pain from you
You make me regret my lifelines
360 degrees of 'love kills hatred'
To be your hate in the making
Fascinates my 'why try's'
Dangerously...i couldn't care less for you
I got enough hatred to last me lifetimes
Insufficient dreams of love just make me wait for you to hate me
Disintegrate my blue skies

It's all good baby
Don't worry about it
Cause i've got all the love you'll ever need

Hey it's all good baby
Don't stress on it
Cause i've got all the love you'll ever need

Pseudo empathy framed in gold for you
My confusion comes in life size
Transmitting live from inner space
Just give me love and i will make it
It irritates my new eyes but...

It's all good baby
Don't worry about it
Cause i've got all the love you'll ever need

Hey it's all good baby
Don't stress on it
Cause i've got all the love you'll ever need


5.If I Could Be Your Star

You're too far away for me to run to
A million galaxies live within you
Why can't i cry my way to your dimension
Or a new dimension not only out of sight and sound but of mind
I'm amazed by night's newest shadows
But if i could feel your moon's good intentions
Venus wants her frown and can not kiss me
So i sympathize with the dark side of the moon inside you
But...

If i could be your parallel
If i could be your one way out
If i could be your vision now
If i could be your star
If i could be a brighter light
If i could comfort you at night
If i could be your star...
If i could be your star

Must i be those rings that surround you
Can i send a satellite to your garden safely
Super nova's fight your emotions
So tell me all your reasons
Tell me why e=mc squared

You invade my space with gravitation
I don't wanna sacrifice
But i'm in orbit
How do all your miles leave you weightless
Can i touch your surface
Or will i burn up in your atmosphere
Because

If i could be your parallel
If i could be your one way out
If i could be your vision now
If i could be your star
If i could be a brighter light
If i could comfort you at night
If i could be your star...
If i could be your star

I could feel your sweet radiation
And with all the space in you i haven't seen you lately
A hundred million light years sit between us
So kill the universe
And tell me where your comets take you
Because...

If i could be your parallel
If i could be your one way out
If i could be your vision now
If i could be your star
If i could be a brighter light
If i could comfort you at night
If i could be your star...
If i could be your star


6.Yang: As Private I's

They always find you all the time...

I befriended my confusion quite some time ago
She tells me everything is gonna be alright (it's alright)
My senses make it real to me in all types of ways
But i'm so angry at my jealousy
That i hold it inside my heart like it's alright

Catapult my visions into realism's bosoms
Dreams prefer caesarian with plastic spoons and knives
That's what you get when your brain masturbates
There's no pleasure

So when i evacuate my intimate states
While screaming 'oh how sweet it is to be loved by you'
The dirty rats you shoot me in the ass
So i don't know what happens when i free my mind

Oh, the cuts that you create let me be the martyr
If i started to love you now, there'd be no end to you
Oh, pick up my embrace. it lives without a reason.
Cause if i killed you now there'd be no end to you.

Cure my house of cards she sends me tears from outerspace
I'm wondering can i not enjoy the pains i find (it's alright)

Mirrors give me confidence in needing myself
But i'm so terrified of being me i get so right

I'm tryin' real hard not to be exactly the way i am
The next time i come here all i'm bringing to this atmosphere
Is the will not to do it again
Understand, i got neon king kong standin' on my back
Can't stop to turn around broke my sacroiliac
Tryin' to keep sealed where this brother's really at
To tell the new millenium 'yo, what da dilly black'
You look cute in your stars and stripes she said are you coming
out
Tonight
That's why whom ever loves me will have to be my killer
Cause here i'm just a slave tryin to be the nigga

Oh, the cuts that you create let me be the martyr
If i started to love you now, there'd be no end to you
Oh, pick up my embrace. it lives without a reason.
Cause if i killed you now there'd be no end to you.


7.Screaming At Me

i can hear me now
Telling me it's my life
I can hear me now
Telling me i'm okay at least until the sun goes down
I can hear me now
Talking to all my tears
I can hear me now
Telling me to stay away but begging me not to go far

There's nothing wrong with your life
Yes i'm putting all the squares in the circles
Freedom's only grieving for you now
Cause i'm not wasting no more lifetimes screaming at me

I can see me now
Kissing and pouring me a bath.
I can hear me now
Telling me i'm alright
Even when i break my heart.
No, theres nothing wrong with this life.
You can put all your worlds on circle.
I can never kiss me goodbye.
Cause i'll be spending my whole lifetime ...
Screaming at me.

Flesh only matters in life
You can't believe your whole world's on this circle very low.
Spirit's are bleeding from my mind
Cause i'm just wasting all my lifetimes...
Constantly wasting all my lifetimes
I'm just so tired of wasting all my lifetimes...
Screaming at me.


8.I Hate Myself For You

Don't waste your precious light, all my life
I've hated myself for you
Feel free that's alright, i'm terrified
I hate myself for you

Ooh...
Don't you see, i hate myself for you (x2)

Too weak, too divine
All my life, i hate myself for you
So why do they think i have this 'buddha gene'
When i can hardly see the angels
I hate myself for you

They're amazed, i can rape my own emotions
So sometimes it's horrible to be me
Defending myself against me drives me crazy
Martyrdom is healthy
Martyrdom is healthy

Ooh...
Don't you see, i hate myself for you (x2)

Armageddon knows i'll b good to you
I can hardly see the angels
I hate myself for you

But i don't know the reasons why the angels sing to you
I feel just like joseph
I feel just like joseph
I hate myself for you

Ooh...
Don't you see, i hate myself for you (x2)


9.No Further Damage

Tell me what i'm to do
I'm trying to find you
But i don't know your ways
And baby you don't love your life

Contentions kill the days for trying it your way
So i don't find it fortunate to be loving you this much this way

All you fears and reasons in time will conquer you
But there's no further damage living in love
When asking for the answers, time will torture you
But there's no further damage living in love

Happiness hurts the sun for foolish reasons
But if you hate me so much then...
Tell me why you're terrified to cry
So tell me you love me too
And finally i get to be you
But in your present state
Baby we can never unify our minds

Why can't i protect you from all the things that hatred does
It's making me feel guilty for living in love
When asking for the answers, time will torture you
But there's no further damage living in love

I saturate my anger with all the love i can muster
Which makes me rich in all hypocrisies, but to celibate to life
So you can have all the fun
And i'll tell you the reasons why...
I don't find it fortunate to be loving you this much this way

Why can't i protect you from all the things that hatred does
It's making me feel guilty for living in love
When asking for the answers, time will torture you
But there's no further damage living in love

All you fears and reasons in time will conquer you
But there's no further damage living in love
When asking for the answers, tell me why...
I don't find it fortunate to be loving you this much this way


10.Hale-bopp Regurgitations

I should'a known not to watch that comet
I should'a known not to give you this
I should've known not to throw away my records
I should've never purchased compact discs

I can't remember inventing the atom
I don't remember what it's like to be god

I should'a known not to watch jerry springer
I should've never watched the people's court

I don't remember inventing the wheel
But i remember making the styrofoam

I should'a known not to watch that comet
I should'a known not to sex amy fisher
I should've never watched the oj trial
I should've known not to shoot john lennon
I should've never gotten aol

I should remember not to blow up buildings
I should remember what it's like to be god

I should've known never sent the stork to the dahmer's
I should'a known not to make free will

I can't remember my life as a mormon
I can't remember five minutes ago

I should'a known not to watch that comet

I can't remember my days as an asshole
The same day i made the cia

I should'a known not to watch that comet

I should've known better


11.Faith In You

I don't kiss the future like the fortune tellers do
So i can't dream with you at night
Pessimism's hunger changes everything
I wish i walked with faith and not by sight but...

You know with anything you do
There's a hundred people bringing you down
No matter how you are

Don't let'em make you cause they'll break you
Don't let'em love you cause they'll hate you even more

So if no one else believes in you
I'm completely yours, and i've got so much faith in you
No matter what this life puts in front of you
You can save this world
I've got so much faith in you

Anyone who knows you sees the renaissance in you
And i have to try and act surprised
I'm a 'prime demotivator' says my point of view
I wish i had some cheer to lead you to but...

No matter how much good you do
There's a million people wishing you harm
(i'm telling you) no matter who you are

Don't let'em make you cause they'll break you
Don't let'em love you cause they'll hate you even more

So if no one else believes in you
I'm completely yours, and i've got so much faith in you
No matter what this life puts in front of you
You can save this world
I've got so much faith in you

Oooo.....there's a million things that i could say to you
Oooo....don't let'em change you inside
Because anyone who matters will try to understand who you are

So if no one else believes in you
I'm completely yours, and i've got so much faith in you
No matter what this life puts in front of you
You can save this world
I've got so much faith in you


12.Broken

In anything that you do, i will be happy for you, so ecstatic
for you
Whatever you are to be, i hope that you'll think of me within
your
Sweetest daydreams
Whenever you decide to die, i hope you're fortified with all you
want
In life
Whenever you have to change, don't let it make you run away from
All that i have to say
Because they'll love you today, when all they really wanna do is
ruin
Everything

I just can't sleep at nite
Knowing the wolves are out to get you
And all the hurt awaiting with life
I just can't walk away knowing...
The pain might leave you broken

If there's anything you might hate, don't make my mistakes,
Let it dissipate
All the things you'll go thru, i know that they'll punish me
More than they punish you
Anytime guilt is felt, don't touch thru no one else, they'll
Make you hurt yourself
Anything you might see looks that looks like it's defeating me,
Don't be afraid of these things
Because you're stronger than me, and all they really wanna do is
ruin
Everything

I just can't sleep at nite
Knowing the wolves are out to get you
And all the hurt awaiting with life
I just can't walk away knowing...
The pain might leave you broken
Knowing...
The pain that left me broken

Because they'll love you today, when all they really wanna do is
ruin
Everything

In anything that you do, i will be happy for you...
So ecstatic for you


13.Untitled

And columbus would sail across the end of the world
Almost admittedly i do this unto you
As columbus would sail across the end of the world
Almost admittedly i wish i were with you

And columbus would sail across the ends of the world
Me, i just couldn't find my way home

And she'd say to me, baby
'i hate you so much, why can't you go away, baby?
I wish you were here.'

I get to curse the world with your good advise
I shoulda stayed a victim and let it surround you babe
I never concentrated and that's all right
See, it's the interruptions that always define you babe

And i say

If lovin' you is pleasing you
Nothing really matters
(nothing really matters when you don't)
If lovin' you is pleasing you
Nothing really matters
(nothing really matters when you don't)

Commonlaw connects me to vice
I shoulda been a witness just to terrify you babe
I can't be myself and still be liked
But, i can have devotion and crucify you babe,

So i say

If lovin' you is pleasing you
Nothing really matters
(nothing really matters when you don't)
If lovin' you is pleasing you
Nothing really matters
(nothing really matters when you don't)

And she'd say to me, baby
'i hate you so much, why can't you go away, baby?
I wish you were here.'

I don't have the patience to be understanding
I become engaged when she reminds me
She can never please me even when she pleases me
Can i really love her?
If she reminds me...of her
She reminds me...of her
She reminds me...of her

When she's condescending
With her double standards
In her apathy i think she...?

And she'd say to me, baby
'i hate you so much, why can't you go away, baby?
I wish you never were'
And she say, she say to me baby
'i hate you so much, you're nothing to me,
Nothing to me baby. i wish you never were'

You never were, you never were
You never were, baby
You never were, i wish you never were
You never were, you never were
I never was...

Verbatim lyrics by yahua'sef


14.Gotta Be...movin' On Up

Chorus
We be movin' on up, (la,la,la,la,la) to the eastside
Where i can do my bid in a fat ass crib in the sky
We be movin' on up, (la,la,la,la,la) to the eastside
And it looks like we're gonna get some cream from the pie
Right, right

Got to take some time to clear my mind
Don't want to think about the problems
Want to leave the west head up to the east side
The way is block i need to get by
Now life is a rocky road, on my shoulders got to bear the load
And if i'm wrong i'm letting you know to throw the negative
Thoughts overboard

Hey mamma dry your teary eyes cause,
I'm a do what i can do so we can get right by and-
If i fall down i'm a get on up and make another try
Up top i'm a find a place ain't gonna stop until,
I see the pretty smile on your face
So now you know, we be, we be, we be....

We be movin' on up, (la,la,la,la,la) to the eastside
Where i can do my bid in a fat ass crib in the sky
We be movin' on up, (la,la,la,la,la) to the eastside
And it looks like we're gonna get some cream from the pie
Right, right

You ain't fresh uh, uh, nah baby
Everybody wanna be a superstar baby
I ain't get the dough to act like i'm better than you
I just got things to do, oh lala, oui oui, freak, freak
You say you want trendy, you say you want sheek
And honey dips, rubbing on your money clip
Hanging on your place, boardwalk and park place
Acting all new look at you how youre living
Meanwhile your style is played out like racism
Me i'm fresh out of love is quite tragic
When all they want to do is inspect my gadget
And change a superman to clark kent
All for the sake of fake amusement
She said 'what do you consider fun?'
You can get it, get it (consider yourself done)

We be movin' on up, (la,la,la,la,la) to the eastside
Where i can do my bid in a fat ass crib in the sky
We be movin' on up, (la,la,la,la,la) to the eastside
And it looks like we're gonna get some cream from the pie
Right, right

Being trying these rocky roads for so long
Still i can't hold on
I'm trying to make that door move on
Papa told me to stay strong
Time has come for that change
Here comes the sun, there goes the rain
Take that first up to tommorow
Laugh me, bring you joy to sorrow
Now i'm gettin' my eyes, i'm crossin' my tears
I'm movin' up and takin' care of my biz

We be movin' on up, (looks like we be movin up) to the eastside
Where i can do my bid in a fat ass crib in the sky
We be movin' on up, (la,la,la,la,la) to the eastside
And it looks like we're gonna get some cream from the pie
Right, right

Taken from the album 'music from the motion picture sensless.'


15.To Love And Hate Seriously

Seriously...

A fortune, says they love me too
I think the reason for the treason
Is burning so lovely.

Yes i'm killing me with time
'cause on occasion i can see
With desperation lives forever.

And only when you're here,
Do i really miss them
And only when you're gone,
Do i feel like they're close to me

Then in trust they hurt you
In love they hurt you
If in vain they hurt you
Then who loves you...?

Seriously...

I can love you
Like none can love you
But if you can love you
Who hurts you?

Seriously...
Seriously...

Sometimes, i know you cry
Because there's nothing else to do
And breathing just won't convince you

I'm through, fighting with you
I really wish you didn't hate the
Way i listen in between you

And only when you're here,
Do i really miss you
Only when you're gone,
Do i feel like you're close to me

Then in trust they hurt you
In love they hurt you
If in vain they hurt you
Then who loves you...?

Seriously...

I can love you
Like none can love you
But if you can love you
Who hurts you?

Seriously...
Seriously..............?

And only when you're here,
Do i really miss them
And only when you're gone,
Do i feel like they're close to me

And in trust they hurt you
In love they hurt you
If in vain they hurt you
Then who loves you...?

Seriously...

I can love you
Like none can love you
But if you can love you
Who hurts you?

And in trust they hurt you
In love they hurt you
If in vain they hurt you
Then who loves you...?

Seriously...

I can love you
Like none can love you
But if you can love you
Who hurts you?

Seriously...
Seriously...
Seriously...
Seriously...
Seriously...
Seriously..............?


16.Perfect For You

It's love, not another word baby
That can show what's yours in my heart.
I'm not just enchanted, i see forever in my dreams.
I'll just just have to wait for you, to see what your plan is,
baby.

Sometimes i hate this place,
This is why noone wants to be in love anymore
It's takin what's real from fake baby
You could overlook the diamond,
That's trying to be perfect for you.

( chorus )
I know what's perfect for you
Where you'll be perfectly safe inside my arms
Let's make a promise right now
If you can be perfect for me
I'll be perfect for you.

It's love, that's makin me regret
Every moment you're not around.
I know you wanna believe me,
But you've always been afraid.
I wish there was a way that you could
See inside my mind, baby.

Sometimes i hate this place.
This is why noone wants to be in love anymore
It's takin what's real for fake baby.
You could pass right by the diamond
That's trying to be perfect for you.

( chorus )

Sometimes i hate this place.
This is why noone wants to be in love anymore
It's takin what's real for fake baby.
You could pass right by the diamond
That's trying to be perfect for you.

Perfect for you...